Monday, April 12, 2004
I know I've been pretty cryptic on here for the past several weeks, maybe longer. That's because right now I'm trying to leave the past behind and start anew, but the past keeps trying to draw me back down into its muddy depths and keep me where I've dwelt for far too long. It's hard breaking loose. It feels like I'm fighting as hard as I can to get free and I just keep running smack into the same stupid cement wall. Guess it's obvious that this approach is not working. Everyone tellls me to give it time. Time is not going to change what has been wrong for much more time than I hardly care to admit. I can't go back and right past wrongs. I don't want to go back. It's no longer in my heart. I need to move on. Let's move on already!!!!