Friday, August 05, 2005
I feel antsy. I feel edgy. I feel like the inside of my teeth itch. I feel like I've been riding a bicycle down what looked like a wide, open road and then the backdrop fell away and what it really is is a tight rope. How did I not see it was a tight rope? I feel like all the things I thought I was doing right missed the point. If I was any kind of drinker, I'd probably be drinking now, but I'm not. The only thing I can do to bide my time and keep my mind from obsessing is to work. I need to stay positive. I need to remember that at some point it will all be worked out. Someday it's not going to be like this anymore.