Here it is, spring break and I have been waylaid by a nasty cold. I rarely get sick during the semester. I'm too busy to get sick then. But ever since college my body has had a knack for getting sick as soon as finals end or a vacation begins. I'm not so sick that I can't take care of myself or my girl, but I feel like hell. I can't smell anything and therefore have no appetite. When I do eat I feel okay while I'm eating but kind of sick not long after, which makes me not so eager to do that again the next time. I'm dizzy and tired. It's warm enough that the snow is melting and the roads are clear and it's probably one of the last days it will be possible to play out in the snow before this all becomes messy mud world, but I just can't do it. So basically I'm stuck inside watching the snow melt off the trees. It almost looks like it's snowing again, but in bigger, soggy clumps. The sun has come out and there are breaks in the clouds. The sky looks like spring and the snow looks kind of funny. A month from now it'll be gone. At least I hope it will.
In the meantime, I will sit here and be sick, plan some dinner menus for the week and make a shopping list to gear up for my big energy expenditure of the day, which will be facing the supermarket. God, how exciting can it get?
Sunday, March 13, 2005
Saturday, March 12, 2005
Spring?
Here it is nearly the middle of March and the first day of my spring break and it's snowing harder than I've seen all winter. It's our second storm this week. The first one was overnight Tuesday into Wednesday when snow fell on top of the rain which turned to ice as the temperature dropped. The university didn't cancel classes and a new, young professor died in a car crash on what I assume was her way to work Wednesday morning. It made the front page of the local paper. The university put up a condolence link that's already down. They tend not to cancel classes for bad weather since many students live in dorms on campus. What they don't seem to consider is that many students and faculty don't live near campus and have to decide if going to class is worth risking dangerous, icy roads.
Friday, March 11, 2005
Thursday, March 10, 2005
I'm a Bunny!
Your HARE DAEMON represents your passive,
kindhearted, and honorable nature. Though you
are occasionally shy with new people, friends
admire your unshakable tranquility, even in the
face of chaos.
What Animal Would Your Daemon Settle As?
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Tuesday, March 08, 2005
The Vortex
It seems the vortex is in full effect now. This time I'm on the outskirts, watching some people close to me go through it. I'm glad that this time I'm not the one getting sucked into it. I've taken that wild ride a few times before and it seems like every time it's with more force and takes longer to come to terms with the aftermath. I know the vortex is just life. It's life when you feel circumstances pulling you away from what is known and secure to something not yet visible or definable. It makes your heart race and keeps you up at night. Days take forever and rush by at the same time. Everything changes so fast but you can't wait to find out what the final outcome is really going to be, so you feel impatient despite the speed. The vortex makes it hard to breathe.
I've tried resisting and I've tried leaping right in. In the end it's all the same. The vortex is going to draw you in when it's your turn and spit you back out when the necessary work is done. The best way to ride it is like a leaf floating on a current. Let it take you where it will. It pulls at you harder the more you try to resist. If you try to direct where it goes, it will hurt you with the strain of it. When you think you know what it means, all that means is it will turn around and prove you wrong. What you need to do is trust your buoyancy. Breathe deep and keep yourself light, the better to float. Keep your wits about you the best you can. The vortex never lasts forever, it just feels that way, but you have to live with whatever consequences it may bring.
You can't control the vortex. You can't choose it or unchoose it. It chooses you. Sometimes it seems like it is bringing you your deepest desires, and then shows you why you were wishing for the wrong thing. It's why they say, "Be careful what you wish for, it may come true." The vortex is what taught me to be a better, more careful wisher.
I've tried resisting and I've tried leaping right in. In the end it's all the same. The vortex is going to draw you in when it's your turn and spit you back out when the necessary work is done. The best way to ride it is like a leaf floating on a current. Let it take you where it will. It pulls at you harder the more you try to resist. If you try to direct where it goes, it will hurt you with the strain of it. When you think you know what it means, all that means is it will turn around and prove you wrong. What you need to do is trust your buoyancy. Breathe deep and keep yourself light, the better to float. Keep your wits about you the best you can. The vortex never lasts forever, it just feels that way, but you have to live with whatever consequences it may bring.
You can't control the vortex. You can't choose it or unchoose it. It chooses you. Sometimes it seems like it is bringing you your deepest desires, and then shows you why you were wishing for the wrong thing. It's why they say, "Be careful what you wish for, it may come true." The vortex is what taught me to be a better, more careful wisher.
Monday, March 07, 2005
Friday, March 04, 2005
It's My Birthday
I woke up this morning and I was 40. Felt pretty much just the same as it did yesterday. Well, except that I'm having a whole lot of fun so far. I opened up presents before I ever got out of bed. I had the usual Friday morning powow and coffee extravaganza with Sis, and she treated. I'm going out to dinner (again) tonight with my wonderful boyfriend. If this is any indication of how the new decade is going to go, I'm think I'm going to like it.
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
Rabbit, Rabbit
We got the snow overnight and all schools relevant to my life cancelled classes for today. None of that stopped me from being wide awake at 6:20 this morning. One advantage I can see to this early rising habit is that I can satisfy my desire to pam about for 2 or 3 hours and still be ready to be useful at a reasonable morning hour. I've already finished up one knitting project (a felted bag) and went back to re-adjust another one (felted slipper) this morning. I have a couple more I am working on that could be finished up fairly soon if I'm diligent with them, which would leave me free to pursue new spring projects.
I've been battling late winter blahs recently. I think everyone around here does once winter starts in on its 4th month with no signs of stopping, plenty of snow on the ground and temperatures consistently a good ten degrees below the average for this time of year. My crafting kind of dropped off after the holiday rush to get present projects completed, but I think that's one of the things that helps me un-blah myself, so I'm heading back to it.
I remember feeling like March was all a bit too much to take last year. I don't know if it's the astrological influence of the sun in pisces or just the long New England winter, but I always feel mental in March.
I've been battling late winter blahs recently. I think everyone around here does once winter starts in on its 4th month with no signs of stopping, plenty of snow on the ground and temperatures consistently a good ten degrees below the average for this time of year. My crafting kind of dropped off after the holiday rush to get present projects completed, but I think that's one of the things that helps me un-blah myself, so I'm heading back to it.
I remember feeling like March was all a bit too much to take last year. I don't know if it's the astrological influence of the sun in pisces or just the long New England winter, but I always feel mental in March.
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